Sunday, September 18, 2005
haha, finally updated. not really anyway. juz here to promote my new fanfic cowritten by me and liyi....
so heres the link:
http://www.winglin.net/fanfic/WeiJianRawkz/
do read and comment ok?
hehe, byes...
alone;;
10:09 PM
Saturday, September 03, 2005
haishh` , im feeling wrong these few days, pms? die lah, 1 more week to prelim. better study harder..
alone;;
11:45 AM
Thursday, September 01, 2005
WEI JIAN IS SO CUTE!! enough said, haha....
alone;;
12:50 PM
Saturday, August 27, 2005
haizz, whole week analyse AGAIN>>
if i can remember that is..
::monday::
hmm, lets see.. think i went j8 with li yi and watched the maid. damn nice ok? and lik every ghost movie, ITS SCARY!!!!! but its very nice at the end. not lik a ghost movie at all, ok, who am i kidding?? after the movie went to take neoprints. went to the new machine.got wind that one. its was DAMN NICE..juz that we sucked. oh wat the shit... by then it was lik 5 and we all went home. u see? not a tinge of badness. oohhh!! im an angel!! NOT. u wanna noe the REAL badass thing? i told my mother i was staying back. *drops back into hell*
::tuesday::
told my mother it was raining( it was ok?? hmm, maybe drizzling..) went to eunice with joanne. talked about umm, things... cant really remember wat happened after that. so most probably went home and such lor..
::wednesday::
stayed back, DUHH.. was damn lonely cos go home de ppl go home, go violin de ppl go violin. left me in bball court. didnt that 45 mins was actually soo long. so lik when violin was over, rushed to the bball court arh!! then ppl who were recording the mv, or so i say, came over and played bball. played till 4 something. arghh, cant remember...
::thursday::
supplementary, damn sianz. played bball again. ok, nothing really bombastic happened, so..watever.
::friday::
went to li yi's house with jo after school. saw all of wei jian;s performances. all together now...WEI JIAN SO CUTE!!!!! ma called me, need to rush back home. guess i didnt. LOL went to the comp search for wei jians mp3 sites that were not closed down. damn difficult. think i fell asleep while uploading sin huey`s yi shi de mei hao. cos my mind is blank after that...
::today::
going to go j8 or lot one with jo and clara. clara also not confirmed go.. haizz, watever lah. $50 for spending. so shuang...
alone;;
9:13 AM
Saturday, August 20, 2005
too lazy to blog.. heres wat happened lately..
::thursday::
chinese oral. damn difficult. missed out alot of points. prepare to die liao. went central for nothing with jo, nicole and clara. juz walk here walk there lor. chatted alot on everything. went comic connection buy notebook and badge. nicole need to go home and clara go meet butter, so they go accompany each other go sch lorz.
went to jo house.decorated the notebook with glitter pens duhh. then wrote alot of wei jian thing insides.. hehe. lik haikus and such. about who sucked and hu rocked. since the ppl i supported all went out anyway.argh..im such a jinx. left jo house at 6.15? damn late. reached home at 7. scolded by my ma. heck care lor. not as if its the first time. anyways, im back safe and sound, and why do u even care in the first place?
ate my cold dinner. then went to watch tv. project superstar finals for the gals. it was damn obvious that sin huey sang better than kelly. but sin huey`s dressing was as usual, umm..weird.. while kelly`s dressing was damn great. her clothes fitted all her songs perfectly. but, her songs were not very good and sin huey won her by quite alot.
bathed right after the show. 10 liddat. but then tml the oral i was in the second half. 9.30 reach school. so can sleep till siaos. and watch the results show too. hahas. finally, 11.30!! the results show. kelly got in. was damn dissapointed. wanted to close the tv there and then but hanged on for the males...
ok, i will try to control my emotions. but...WHY DID THE CEH MEH GET IN?!?!?! in terms of singing and stage pressence, jun yang wins the ceh meh over by ALOT. arghh, first it was wei jian, and now jun yang. channel u die liaoz. whole singapore uproar. went to sleep. turned on the radio cos i knew that there will be alot of ppl encouraging jun yang and such. then cried myself to sleep..
::friday::
woked up thinking i was late for oral, then remembered that i was in the second half.. hahas. hit myself in the head for being so blur then went back to sleep. woke up again at lik 8. brushed my teeth and such. put on my lucky charm and left the house. waited for a looong time for the darn bus. scared i would be late lik yesterday. heng another bus came, and not crowded. PHEW!! reached sch at bout 9.15. met clara at the bus stop there. talked about how scared we were since both of us were the first one to be tested. reached hall at 9.20. saw that i was the last in my class to come in.. as always.. =P said hellos to alot of ppl. then took out book to read. cant concentrate cos too nervous. talked to lim instead. throat was too dry. drank her water.. hehe.. THANX LIM!!
went to our waiting room. getting more and more nervous. i first one leh!! haizz. saw the pic. was simple. very simple. TOO simple. haizz. took one glance at the simple pic and turned it over. focused too much on my reading till the timekeeper was kinda worried for me asked me if i knew that there was the picture reading on the other side. hehe.. cant blame her. din really look at the pic. juz one glance and flipped it over AGAIN. lol... five mins was up. went to exam room. not really nervous cos the exam room was my classroom. my territory!! hehes. more relaxed.. reading was bullet train, as usual. die.. picture conversation. used darn and omg. die.. conversation. spoke lik i was really talking to my frens. except that it was in english lah. used hate and kinda alot of times. haizz. watever lah. waited at the staircase for clara. met jun wei, adrian and yong xiang there. lent adrian $1 . dun tink he will be returning anytime soon. unlucky. asked yong xiang why he liked cheryl. couldnt force a confession out of him. but he said he liked another gal. hmm... clara came down finally. met jo, nn, alicia, nicole, eunice and so on. thought why suddenly so many ppl going. actually onli quite abit. crossed the road and saw the bus coming. all of us juz CHONG arh!! that kind of feeling. met yaokuang on the bus. scolded that lao ceh meh right in his face cos he supported him. heck cares arh. reached j8. go take neoprints. after that, alicia, clara, nicole and wei hao go watch the maid. haizz, no $$ so didnt go. went nan`s house instead. veri nice. played tennis, table tennis and bball. found out that i sucked in tennis. period. went home quite early cos scared that later ma punish me or something. who knew that my ma and sis go pangg sehhed me go watch charlie amd choco fac. hated them lik siaos. so was alone in the damned house. nothing to do. so juz stared at the computer screen for hours till the ji po ju le bu cos sure got jue dui superstar inside. hehe.. so sianz, so went to bed early..
::now::
is lik damn boring cos im downloading the superstar`s perfoemances, still. haizz, one day my comp sure crash one.
alone;;
12:54 PM
Wednesday, August 17, 2005
happy birthday to jun yang!! good luck with candyce!!
alone;;
10:33 PM
Sunday, August 14, 2005
why cant you just stop nagging!!! im juz not hungry, not anoroxic cos wei jian got out ok??!!! im juz NOT HUNGRY!! dont think u noe me very well. u juz leave me alone in this freaking backstabbing world once my sister waas born into this world(not like i care) stop forcing to eat every now and then. try being so damn full and being forced to eat. u dun juz blast meh????!!! stupid irrirtaiting freakish fucker thingy mother. and its obvious i will get back to my life!! i juz need time ok?? and i confirm u i will be well again BEFORE the psle orals ok? u juz wan me to get good grades cos ur darling braty bitchy lame-ish crappy obnoxious pet daughter is juz a moronic ARSE who got the worst results EVER. i noe ur family all veri smart one. be doctor, rich till siao and everthing. and u? normal job. FREAKING!!! ur face all gone mah..wan me to be lik dunno who. go university, study overseas. MY FOOT!! i juz wan to complete my poly. does that really upset u sooooo much that u hav to harp on it every single second?!?!? u have ur dreams of me becoming someone damn freaking great. thats ur problem. why dun u ask ur darling braty bitchy lame-ish crappy obnoxious pet daughter to do it? oh yah, shes a moronic ARSE. i hav my dreams. i dunnit to listen to u rant and rave ALL day ok?
one more thing: u cant force me to do the things i dun wan to do. GETTIT??!!
alone;;
2:16 PM
Friday, August 12, 2005
oh..and happy birthday chanel!!!
alone;;
7:09 PM
i cant believe it...wei jian is out.damn shocked.then bawled my eyes out once cas called.i dun tink i will be able to sleep tonite...wonder how i am going to school tml.today.watever.doesnt really matter anymore.its all my fault that wei jian din get in.i shud have voted more instead of juz 15 votes...i hate myself.for not asking wd to help liyi vote 50 times. why?! y muz it be wei jian to get out????really wanna skip school.muz tink of excuse...haizz
wei jian!!
ni na me WAN MEI de can sai zhe,
bei ti chu ju,
wo hui HEN XIANG NI!!!!
CHU CI ZHI WAI, ni yao zai jia you nu li!!
JI DE zhe yi ju hua:life is like a PIANO, sometimes belting out sorrowful tunes, sometimes happy tunes, juz lik life has its happy and unhappy moments..
W E I J I A N!!!
alone;;
12:11 AM
Thursday, August 04, 2005
i seriously wonder why i hav such a high level of tolerance. wondering when i am going to hav the courage to shout to her: I CANT STAND U!!! SO Y DUN U JUZ F*CK OFF?????
but i cant.wonder when i will finally break and flare up...all those angst that i hav are all bottled up.seriously, im gonna juz, i dunno...do something real BAD.lik slapping her? or her? or her?
see?
im mad....offcially..
alone;;
7:32 PM
Leave Me
Alone
by Princess
This isn’t
the end, this is
the start,
Of
you ripping my body
and soul
apart,
Everything
inside me, including my
heart,
You
left in a million tiny
parts.
You
filled my heart full of
fear,
All I want is you
to be here,
You
always know how
to bring me to
tears,
You are like on
giant painful
spear.
You
leave me feeling
full of doubt,
I don’t
think I can live
without,
You
make me want
to scream and
shout,
And let
all these feelings
and emotions
out.
When you do
this, it seems like
you don’t care,
You just go
away, and leave me
there,
Bloodstains
on whatever I
wear,
Leave me
with a cold, hard
stare.
All I want is you
to hold me,
Love me
and just let me be,
I
just want
you to see,
What
it is like, living, being
me.
You
fill me
with hurt
and
pain,
And you
keep doing it,
over and over
again,
Seems like you
always bring on the
rain,
Over and
over, always the
same.
You make
it worse with every hit,
You
make me want
to crawl away and
sit,
You
make sure you kill
every little bit,
You
leave, with one last
hard
slit.
There’s
nothing I can
do or say,
Nothing I
can do to make it go
away,
All I can
do is sit and
pray,
You will leave me
alone; this
will be the
final day.